Julia Roberts' Sister Blamed 'Mother & So-Called Siblings' For Driving Her Into 'The Deepest Depression' -- Nancy Motes' Suicide Note Revealed

//nancy motes suicide note blames mom so called siblings  wide

Jul. 1 2014, Published 6:08 p.m. ET

Link to FacebookShare to XShare to Email

Five months after Julia Roberts' half-sister died, Nancy Motes' suicide note has surfaced, revealing the troubled 37-year-old blamed her mother and "so-called siblings" for the deep depression that caused her to take her own life.

First obtained by the Mail Online, the suicide note confirms that Motes felt her Pretty Woman star sister was so cruel that it "drove me into the deepest depression I've ever been in."

Article continues below advertisement

"My mother & so called 'siblings' get nothing except the memory that they are the ones that drove me into the deepest depression I've ever been in," Motes wrote in her emotional last words.

"If anything should happen to me, John Bailey Dilbeck gets whatever he wants of my possessions & ownership of Lucy."

Motes was engaged at the time of her death to John Dilbeck, who is now embroiled in a nasty legal battle with Roberts and her mother Betty over control of Motes' estate.

Bashing Roberts even in her final moments, Motes wrote that the actress' abuse was so bad that "I burst into tears b/c I woke up."

Motes — a former production assistant on the hit FOX show Glee — was found dead on Feb. 9 after drowning in her bathtub following a deadly mixture of nonprescription and prescription pills.

PHOTOS: Celebs Involved in Murder

Roberts' deceased half-sister wrote the note in three sections; one to Roberts and Betty, one to Dilbeck and one addressed to "everyone."

Article continues below advertisement

Dilbeck turned over his portion of the note in court papers filed regarding Motes' estate, but Betty and Roberts have chosen not to add theirs so they remain private.

Under California law the Los Angeles County Coroner only has to give portions of the suicide note to those addressed.

Motes calls herself "nothing but a junky" in the message to Dilbeck, stating he "really will be better off w/out me."

"I know this will effect you the most and & I can't apologize enough. I was truly blessed & lucky to have you as my true love and best friend. I will carry you with me forever," she wrote.

"And I am so sorry."

As exclusively reported, Roberts, 46, and Betty, 79, attended a secret funeral to bury Motes in Georgia, one in which many of those close to Motes were not invited to grieve alongside the famous family — including her fiancé, Dilbeck.

“It really hurts,” Dilbeck told “I was very frustrated and hurt by it. I needed to voice being hurt, because Nancy’s voice is being silenced.”

If anyone you know, is struggling with thoughts of suicide, please immediately seek help. You can speak with a skilled, trained counselor at a national Suicide Prevention Lifeline crisis center in your area, anytime 24/7 — call 1-800-273-TALK (8255).



Opt-out of personalized ads

© Copyright 2023 Radar Media Group LLC. RADAR and RADARONLINE are registered trademarks. All rights reserved. Registration on or use of this site constitutes acceptance of our Terms of Service, Privacy Policy and Cookies Policy. People may receive compensation for some links to products and services. Offers may be subject to change without notice.