Opening up in the January issue of Good Housekeeping, the 43-year-old actress recalled her “darkest days” after her brother, Lancelot Jr., was killed in a 1992 car crash.
“My life was rocked to the core,” Latifah said.
Heightening the pain: When it happened, he was riding the motorcycle Latifah had bought for him just two months earlier.
“I felt guilty,” she added. “I was angry at God.”
Latifah said she didn’t cope with the shock of the incident well.
“Drinking a bunch of alcohol, numbing myself,” she recalled. “Every day I would be faded, like a painting that’s just not vibrant, whose edges are dull. I wasn’t living my full life.”
Latifah knew it was time to stop the downward spiral and began going to therapy, at the recommendation of Jada Pinkett Smith, her friend and Set It Off costar.
The support of her friends and family helped Latifah through her sadness, but the real key, she said, was her faith in God.
“I realized that [being angry] wasn’t helping me or my brother. I learned that God was going to provide comfort; I know He is always listening and guiding,” the Queen Latifah Show host said.