Shocking Confession: Courtney Stodden Reveals She Tried To Commit Suicide By Hanging
Jan. 21 2020, Updated 5:26 p.m. ET
Courtney Stodden revealed in a shocking new video the heartbreaking news she tried to commit suicide by hanging.
The former Teen Bride, now 25, confessed that she tried to take her life in 2019 while she was still legally married to Doug Hutchison, the actor she wed when she was just 16 and he was 50. The pair's divorce has just been officially finalized.
Courtney exclusively told RadarOnline.com that she was thankful that her marriage is over.
“Finally, yay I’m ok? I’m so thankful to be able to start living truthfully and LOVE myself," she wrote in a text message. "I’m so used to living for other people. 2020 vision.”
She told RadarOnline.com she was “thankful to share her story.”
Courtney's video revealed just how dark her situation became.
“It’s no secret that I have struggled with depression,” she said in a YouTube recording posted on Monday, January 20.
“I didn’t see a way out of all the pain and the grief and the insanity that I’ve struggled with in my life,” the blonde admitted, explaining, “I just feel like it all got too much for me. I decided in a really drunken state that this was the best option.”
In the emotional video, Courtney described how she tried to end her life.
“All I remember during that time, during those few moments I was just thinking God, this is thebest option. I don’t know what else to do. I took my pants off. I took my jeans off. I wrapped it around the shower door and I just prayed and the next thing I knew was that my head hit the toilet or something and the shower door broke," she said.
Courtney, who shot to fame after her Vegas wedding with Doug in 2011, said she's thankful the suicide attempt failed.
“By the grace of God, it didn’t work. I still can’t believe that I did that. I sit here right now in shock," she said.
According to court documents obtained by RadarOnline.com, Doug gets the dog, the 2001 Jeep Wrangler, and his SAG pension. The Green Mile actor also gets the stock shares to Dark Water, Inc., which they value at $100 ($1 per share that he owns).
Neither person will get spousal support from the other, and both agreed that this will be "final, irrevocable, and cannot be modified by Court order in any amount or duration for any reason whatsoever, regardless of a change of circumstance of either or both of us for any reason or cause."
If you or anyone you know is struggling with thoughts of suicide please contact the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255, available 24 hours everyday.
Scroll through the gallery for more details about Courtney’s brave confession.
Watch The Video
“I’m opening up about things that happened in the marriage and my childhood,” Courtney said on the YouTube video. “Thank God I am woke. Today is a day of strength.”
Toxic Love
“I believe Doug and I had so much love that was toxic given the situation,” Courtney admitted about her unconventional marriage. “I was a child. You can’t get around that I was a child. I don’t think Doug ever saw me as a child."
Life Goes On
“I’ve lost a lot and I’ve gained a lot,” the reality star countered during her video, insisting, "I’ve been hospitalized for multiple panic attacks." She added: "Life is worth living. No matter what. No matter what other people have done to you."
Not Looking Back
“I’m truly grateful,” Courtney shared of moving beyond the pain.
Mother’s Love
Courtney’s mother, Krista Stodden, told RadarOnline.com exclusively how she reacted to the news of the divorce. "I think this is for the best. I have regrets for letting her marry so young, but when I tell Courtney that she tells me she has no regrets and that she is happy the way things are and that she loves her life and is looking forward to continuing making her music,” said Krista.
“I am grateful that her and I are getting closer and learning to respect each other's lives. She is a very talented woman in many areas. I wish my daughter well always. I wish Doug well and I am grateful that I am able to continue with what I love doing, managing clients and helping them with their dreams in life as well," Krista continued of her daughter.
She added: "This definitely has been a crazy time in all of our lives and now with the divorce final it's kind of a finalization of all of that. We really like Courtney's boyfriend Chris and we wish them well together. They are really cute together. I am blessed to have 3 beautiful daughters and I am grateful for life.”
Nothing To Lose
“He recently told me that I’ve lost nothing,” Courtney said about her ex-husband. “He said I owe him. I don’t really see how that even makes any sense.”