Beyoncé's Hell: Singer Tells All On ‘Pain & Loss’ After Suffering Multiple Miscarriages
Dec. 9 2019, Updated 6:29 p.m. ET
In a candid new interview, Beyoncé has opened up about suffering multiple miscarriages and growing stronger because of the heart-wrenching experiences.
“I began to search for deeper meaning when life began to teach me lessons I didn’t know I needed,” the superstar singer revealed in the January issue of Elle.
"Success looks different to me now,” she noted, explaining, “I learned that all pain and loss is in fact a gift. Having miscarriages taught me that I had to mother myself before I could be a mother to someone else.”
And when she and her husband, Jay-Z, welcomed their first child, Blue, who turns 8 in January, Beyoncé said her “quest for my purpose became so much deeper.”
“I died and was reborn in my relationship, and the quest for self became even stronger,” added Beyoncé, who is also mom to 2-year-old twins, daughter Rumi and son Sir.
As RadarOnline.com previously reported, Beyoncé, 38, and her 50-year-old husband’s relationship was pushed to the brink in 2016 when she revealed to the world on her Lemonade album that Jay-Z had cheated.
“Unfortunately, she will never be able to trust Jay-Z. She has him on a tight leash and always will,” a source close to the songstress had told Radar, noting Beyoncé still suffers major trust issues but she’s firmly in charge of their life together.
“Their marriage is constantly hot and cold and Jay-Z has morphed into what she wants him to be,” the source had said. “He has lost his individuality and she definitely wears the pants in their marriage.”
In her interview, Beyoncé admitted juggling her career and her family isn’t always easy.
“I think the most stressful thing for me is balancing work and life. Making sure I am present for my kids — dropping Blue off at school, taking Rumi and Sir to their activities, making time for date nights with my husband, and being home in time to have dinner with my family — all while running a company can be challenging,” said Beyoncé.
"Juggling all of those roles can be stressful, but I think that’s life for any working mom," she added.