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Jax Taylor Suicide Bombshell: ‘VPR’ Star Wanted To Take ‘Drugs To Hurt Myself’

Jax Taylor Suicide Drugs Hurt Dad Death
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Dec. 17 2018, Published 9:57 p.m. ET

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Heartbreaking confession.

Vanderpump Rules star Jax Taylor was so crushed by his father’s unexpected death that he found himself having dark thoughts.

“I was in a deep rut,” he admitted in an interview with Men’s Health.

“I was literally going to lock myself in a room and do enough drugs to hurt myself,” the Bravolebrity revealed.

Taylor said he took drastic measures to straighten his life out after his dad passed away after an intense battle with cancer.

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So, he turned to medical marijuana and started working out to get out of the rut and save his own life.

“I tried it and it changed my life. I said, ‘You know what? I'm not going to hurt myself. I'm not going to drink. I'm going to flip this around and make my dad proud. I'm going to go to the gym. We're going to start some businesses. We're going to move up.”

The VPR star said he gained a whopping 100 pounds filming Lisa Vanderpump’s RHOBH spin-off show set in her bar SUR.

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“I thought, ‘Why didn't my friends tell me? Why didn't my own girlfriend tell me this?’” Taylor told the magazine.

“I looked disgusting. I was like a butterball. I was not lean. I didn't have the chiseled look that I used to have. I was, like, this has got to stop.”

He explained how he packed on the pounds.

“I was eating more crap than I was working out. Postmates came out. I can order Doritos from my couch? Making a Murderer marathon is on? I'm not getting off of this couch. I'm going to eat everything in sight. Then you wake up and you're like, ‘What is that?’ That's my belly.”

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Taylor’s fiancée, Brittany Cartwright, gushed over his dedication to losing weight after he claimed to have lost 42 pounds in preparation for his wedding.

“He impresses me every single day. Not only by going to the gym and making healthier choices, but by seeing how happy and confident he is now. He has helped me in so many ways to stick to my own gym classes, and being a great gym partner. We diet together and we have amazing cheat meals together. I think he looks so handsome and his dedication to me and to change is so sexy!”

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