Notorious serial killer Ted Bundy, who once bragged he was “the most cold-hearted son of a b***h you’ll ever meet,” was in reality a moaning, vain coward who cried for months when he was first jailed.
The pretty-boy predator — electrocuted on Death Row 30 years ago, on Jan. 24, 1989, after murdering up to 100 women in a hellish 1970s killing spree – also hated being called “crazy” and thought he was completely normal.
After reviewing disturbing transcripts of more than 100 hours of never-before-heard tapes of his final confessions, RadarOnline.com can reveal the charming butcher’s whiny complaints, which were made as he languished on Florida State Prison’s Death Row.
His final confessions were taped during interviews he held with investigative reporters Stephen G. Michaud and Hugh Aynesworth in the years leading up to his execution.
Their tapes will be incorporated into a new Netflix series on Bundy, Conversations With A Killer: The Ted Bundy Tapes, dropping on the anniversary of the murderer’s death.
Opening up about his belief that his mom’s emotional detachment, his family’s poverty and his unpopularity at school drove him to kill, maim and rape, Bundy bleated: “My mother and I didn’t talk a lot about real personal matters... certainly never about sex or anything like that… she doesn’t open up and explain.”
“I always felt I was too small. This feeling began to emerge in junior high school — that I didn’t have the weight or physique for sports,” he continued. “And it was very costly to buy the uniforms. My family didn’t always have the money, so I was all on my own. It was a source of some agony.”
Bundy was well aware he had developed intellectually but not socially.
“In high school, I would be characterized as introverted,” he said. “My way to compensate for that was to say, ‘Well, I don’t go in for those things. I don’t like the drinking. I don’t care for this carrying on. I’m a serious student and I’m above all this.’”
“A lot of my pretensions about being a scholarly type was really a defense mechanism, because I couldn’t achieve those kinds of social goals I wanted,” he added.
Alienated Bundy turned to porn and peeping through girl’s windows as a teen before the rejection he felt from society and women drove him to slaughter dozens of lookalike brunettes across at least seven states.
Authorities believe the serial killer may have snuffed out the lives of up to 100 women, but Bundy hinted in his final taped confessions his victims may have numbered in the thousands.
“Who knows how many? For every one that’s publicized there could be one that’s not — thousands of people are reported missing and are never heard from again,” he boasted.
But his tough-guy persona slipped when he talked about his first months in jail.
Bundy, who sliced the heads off at least 12 of his victims, had sex with the corpses of others, ate his victims’ flesh and kept their body parts at home, moaned: “I thought I was going to die every night the first few days I was in jail back in October of 1975. I was scared to death, daily. I thought they were going to kill me.”
“That first four or five months I cried at night. I was a wreck,” he recalled. “A couple of guys kept chanting, ‘We don’t like rape-os,’ gave me the bad eye, called me a baby raper and all that s**t.”
It has been rumored for decades Bundy was gang raped by four prisoners on Death Row in 1984, with prosecution lawyer George R. Dekl reiterating the claim in his book The Last Murder.
For the first time, Radar can reveal Bundy – who was terrified of being sexually assaulted – hinted that a Death Row guard allowed a mob of inmates to attack him.
Bundy said about the warden: “I’ve got this problem. I’ve got this red-headed bull back there who enjoys pushing me in sh**t.”
When it came to talking about his pending death in the electric chair, Bundy said: “It’s an eye for an eye — it’s no deterrent. It does not and never will restore any measure of compensation to the victim’s family or the state.”
And talking of his hatred of being viewed as insane, Bundy added: “I know I’m not crazy, or insane, incompetent, anything else. I’m not an animal and I’m not crazy and I’m not a split personality. People refuse to believe that. That’s their problem. They’ll never truly understand what makes me tick.”
Bundy babbled on that one of the things that really turned him on was his foot and sock fetish.
He said: “I have always felt deprived of underwear. This is for real. I mean, I’ve got a sock fetish; I am really sick when it comes to socks. Those are some of the things for people who really want to know what makes Ted Bundy tick. I’m very close to my feet. They’re probably the most attractive feet you’ve ever seen. Socks are such a serious part of my life.”
He went on to admit he got hooked on valium, booze and weed and adored the kinky writings of the Marquis de Sade.
He also constantly refers to himself as “the entity” and “the organism” despite insisting he did not suffer from schizophrenia and had “normal chromosomes.”
Bundy was finally executed by electric chair in 1989 for the murder of 12-year-old Kimberly Leach, who he killed one month after slaying Lisa Levy and Margaret Bowman at Florida State University in the late '70s.
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