In a new clip from MTV’s upcoming Being Amber special, airing Sunday, Feb. 23, the controversial Teen Mom star breaks down after realizing how much time she missed with her little girl.
“Last night when we were going to sleep, [Leah] said, ‘Are you going to be here when I wake up?'” Portwood says.
Unable to hold back tears, she runs to her bedroom and closes the door.
“I feel so f— bad. I left her for so long and I just don’t f—ing want her to feel that way,” the 23-year-old mom says, with tears in her eyes. “I know why she’s acting the way she is. She’s afraid I’m going to f—ing leave her again.
“I just hate everything I did. It was all the drugs and s—t. It was all I did. All I did was get f—ed up.”
As we previously reported, Portwood failed to complete a drug rehab program, which was required from earlier arrests for drug possession and parole violations. She opted for the jail time instead of completing her treatment. She was released in November after serving only 17 months of her five-year sentence.
Portwood will remain under the watchful eye of a parole officer for the next year and will be subject to random drug testing.