In an upcoming episode of Jill & Jessa: Counting On, Anna Duggar breaks her silence on husband Josh's cheating scandal.
"It was definitely hard, and I think it is such a betrayal for a spouse to go through what we're walking through," Anna tearfully revealed during the emotional sit-down. "It was hard to realize that it was such a public ordeal."
"Here we were as a Christian couple, everyone was able to see us get married and vow before God to be loyal to each other, and that loyalty was broken," the 28-year-old continued. "For my heart it was just like, 'How could this happen in our marriage? Josh is my first love, my one and only.'"
As Radar exclusively reported, the reality star recently trekked out to Josh's Illinois treatment center, where she confronted her troubled hubby over his straying ways.
Sources say Anna "knew" they had to discuss the recent lawsuit concerning porn star Danica Dillon, filled with shocking claims that Josh was violent during two nights of paid sex in seedy hotel rooms.
"I knew that my only hope was to cling to my faith, because if I went off of what I was feeling, I would turn a mess into a disaster," Anna confessed during the shocking preview. "I didn't know what to do."
Meanwhile, as Radar reported, Josh's parents Jim Bob and Michelle Duggar are looking into adopting another baby, which would bring their Christian brood to a total of 20 children.
Jill and Jessa: Counting On, a three-part special, continues on Dec. 20 & 27 at 8/7c on TLC.