Angela "Big Ang" Raiola was laid to rest yesterday, but her husband Neil Murphy hasn't found peace yet.
"I can only imagine he's broken hearted," Raiola's Mob Wives costar Marissa Jade, 31, told RadarOnline.com exclusively. "I understand the pain. Obviously the man is not happy at all. I'm sure he is in a daze. That was the love of his life. You can tell, Neil genuinely loved Angela."
As Radar previously reported, Raiola, 55, and Murphy, 43, separated in December, shortly after she was diagnosed with stage four brain and lung cancer.
According to Raiola, her husband wasn't supporting her during her health crisis, so she needed a break from him.
"I think everything she was going through in life, she just felt really stressed out because at the end of the day, as a woman, you want to feel like your man is consoling you," Jade explained of Raiola's decision to part ways with Murphy. "You want to be able to look up to your man and know that he has your back and he can take care of you."
"I think during the time of stress, Angela felt like she was helping everybody, and she wasn't getting helped," she continued. "I understand where she is coming from, because she's an extremely huge support system for her family, so I felt her pain at that very moment. You can tell she was extremely stressed out with everything."
But Jade believes that Murphy was handling Raiola's diagnosis the best way that he could at the time.
"Neil loved her with every fiber of him, and you can tell how much he loved her and how genuine he was," she said. "He really adored Angela. Maybe he couldn't give her as much as he'd like but that didn't mean his heart wasn't in it."
She added, "I just think that Neil does the best that he can and she needed a little bit more from him."
Shortly before her death, Radar revealed that Raiola had forgiven her husband.
"My sister would never ever keep a grudge or hard feelings for anybody," Raiola's sister Janine Detore told Radar. "She was just like that. You could do anything to her and she would be like, 'Okay.'"
But saying goodbye wasn't easy for Murphy or any one else close to the reality queen.
"It's surreal," Jade said. "I mean literally it was kind of like yesterday she was here. But yesterday meaning we were just filming, we were working, we were on vacation and we were doing things."
She concluded, "It just makes you think of life and realize don't ever take it for granted because one day you can be here and the next gone."