Kailyn Lowry's twisted upbringing involved a rape so brutal that it landed her in the hospital. The Teen Mom 2 star's new tell-all, Hustle & Heart, reveals details from the traumatizing incident.
"A guy who'd been asking me out for a while showed up at my apartment plastered," Lowry wrote in her book that will be released on November 22. "He said he needed to talk to me. I let him in. He grabbed me, dragged me into the bedroom and forced me down."
Although Lowry, 24, tried to fight back, her attacker was "too strong" and "too rough." "I bled. I screamed," she wrote. "And when he left me, my body torn and my sheets stained with blood, I felt like I was dead."
Lowry's injuries were so severe that she was hospitalized. "The doctors stitched me up," she penned. "The pain was unbearable. It was obvious what had happened to me. And yet I wouldn't agree to a rape kit. I was shaken and afraid and overwhelmed by chaotic ideas of what would happen if I accused Caleb of rape. I couldn't stand to think about the consequences."
The mother-of-two then explained why she let her attacker get away with the crime. "I blamed myself for what had happened," she wrote. "I refrained from telling anyone. And even as it ate away at me, I tried to pretend it had never happened. I tried to escape into a reality in which I wasn't a victim."
But Lowry explained how she regretted her decision to not come forward. "If only I had stood up for myself, raised my voice and backed up my beliefs," she said. "If only I'd been living proof of the fact that no victim should live in shame. Then I could have turned what happened into a source of strength. I could be looking back now and feeling proud of myself."
But Lowry's sad childhood didn't end there, as she explained the effect her father's absence and her mother's alcohol abuse had on her. "My loneliness drove me to lose myself in clouds of weed smoke, in fights that got me suspended from school," she said.
Lowry revealed more about how her want of "love and stability" forced her "into the arms of boys." "In the eighth grade, I lost my virginity on a sidewalk," she wrote. "At fifteen, I was pressured into sex by a boyfriend who promised to wear a condom, and then took it off without telling me."
On her sixteenth birthday, she claimed her mother and his parents forced her into getting an abortion. "It shattered me," she said. When she became pregnant again only a year later with her ex-boyfriend Jo Rivera's child, she chose to go through with the pregnancy and "didn't care who said what about it."
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