Queer Eye star Jonathan Van Ness has disclosed that he was diagnosed as HIV positive seven years ago.
The grooming expert, now 32, has publicly shared the news in a new memoir and The New York Times obtained the excerpt.
In his book Over The Top: A Raw Journey to Self-Love, hairdresser Van Ness revealed that he got the shocking diagnosis when he was 25, after fainting while working on a client’s hair, according to the Times.
The next day, he found out what was wrong with him at Planned Parenthood.
“That day was just as devastating as you would think it would be,” he writes in the book, according to the newspaper.
“I’ve had nightmares every night for the past three months because I’m scared to be this vulnerable with people,” Van Ness said. “There are issues that need to be talked about.”
Van Ness bravely went on with his life after the diagnosis. He moved to Los Angeles and shot to fame. He appeared on his own Game of Thrones web series recap parody called Gay of Thrones, and then landed on the Queer Eye reboot on Netflix opposite Antoni, Karamo Brown, Tan France and Bobby Berk.
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Now Van Ness wants fans to know he's a "member of the beautiful HIV positive community."
He added to The Times, "When Queer Eye came out, it was really difficult because I was like, 'Do I want to talk about my status?' "
With his tell all book, he decided, "I do feel the need to talk about this."
Also in the tome, according to the NYT, Van Ness writes that he was sexually assaulted as a child by an older boy from his church.
He noted that "for a lot of people who are survivors of sexual assault at a young age, we have a lot of compounded trauma."
As a teenager, Van Ness said he found older men to have sex with via AOL chat rooms.
Drug use compelled him to advertise sex for cash but he eventually got clean and sober after attending beautician school and pursued his successful web career.
Van Ness, who has also appeared in Taylor Swift's "You Need to Calm Down" music video, says that he hasn't done hard drugs in years.