In a never-before-heard phone call exclusively obtained by Radar, featured above, Hernandez sounds desperate as he longs for his close friend, Ryan McDonnell.
“I miss you,” Hernandez tells McDonnell. “If I think about you for one second I go crazy. This is my first call I got to make. The only thing is – the only thing is, the only thing I try to do is not think of you. I can’t.”
Hernandez placed the call behind bars on June 28, 2013. He was locked up on murder charges for the killing of Odin Lloyd.
Despite the fact that Hernandez was engaged to longtime girlfriend, Shayanna Jenkins, at the time of the call, the former New England Patriots player confessed that McDonnell was his first priority.
“Obviously you’re the first person I put on my visitors list right now,” a shaken up Hernandez told his friend.
The disgraced NFL player then opened up about his insecurities to McDonnell, admitting that the “first thing I did” was writing McDonnell a “two page letter.”
“I just need you to be here for me, please?” Hernandez is heard desperately asking his friend.
As Radar readers know, multiple men came out after Hernandez’s death – in which he committed suicide in his prison cell in 2017 – claiming to be his gay lovers. His former childhood friend, Dennis SanSoucie claimed the two had a sexual relationship in high school.
Hernandez’s fellow prisoner, Kyle Kennedy, also spoke out alleging the two had a homosexual relationship in prison.
During the shocking phone call, McDonnell claimed he was angry with Hernandez – but that it didn’t change his feelings about him.
“I love you,” McDonnell told Hernandez, who replied: “I f***ing love you. Just know that I’m so pissed at you but I love you too much to be mad at you.”
Just last month, Hernandez’s brother, DJ, released a book about the fallen NFL star, documenting his sordid childhood which included being molested by a male figure.
DJ claimed in the book that Hernandez always believed the molestation is what turned him gay.
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