Caitlyn Jenner's 30 Most Shocking REVELATIONS From 'Vanity Fair' –– Suicide Attempt, Plastic Surgery, Vicious Fights & Flashing Boobs!

Caitlyn Jenner opened up for the first time to Vanity Fair about her transition and RadarOnline.com has a gallery of the 30 most shocking revelations from the interview.

Caitlyn admitted her flaws as a parent in the interview, saying, "I have made a lot of mistakes raising the four Jenner kids," referring to her older children. "I had times not only dealing with my own issues but exes ... there was a lot of turmoil in my life ... and I wasn't as close to my kids as I should have been."

In the 1980s, when she started an attempted transition, her kids said she was a better parent. Her daughter Cassandra said Caitlyn "was moving towards her authentic self," but wished things had been different. "I would happily have traded a distant father for a loving, involved mom."

Her son Brandon saw Caitlyn for the first time after the surgery, and "she pulled up her top to reveal her new breasts," much to his shock. "Whoa, I'm still your son," he gently reminded her.

There was a major "disagreement over the upcoming E! docu-series," Graydon Carter's magazine reported. "The children believe that with the right producers the show could be wonderful on multiple levels," but there was "concern that the show would devolve into maximum mayhem and minimum social awareness."

Caitlyn admitted that perhaps the older children made the right choice by not participating in her new show. "I think it's better for the show right now. It keeps me on point and doesn't distract with all the family issues."

Caitlyn revealed why she has come forward in such a public fashion. "I'm not doing it for money. I'm doing it to help my soul and help other people. If I can make a dollar, I am certainly not stupid." Still, she said, "You don't go out and change your gender for a television show."

Her mother Esther Jenner told the magazine she had doubts about Caitlyn's true intention. "I woke up one night and all I was thinking about is … ‘Is this all about making money?' And that was bothering me ... I don't know if it was both she and Kris or mainly Kris, it seemed like their lifestyle was about money."

Her crowning glory was not on the field but doing the Vanity Fair photo shoot; she said that "was better than winning the gold medal."

The older Jenner kids refused to participate in her new E! series -- at one point she swore at them, and said she felt "terribly disappointed and terribly hurt."

Two weeks after the surgery, Caitlyn listened to Monica Lewinsky's TED talk on cyber-bullying and was inspired.

As an Olympian she was hindered. "I could not really cross dress ... I tried to grow my hair out as much as I could without getting yelled at."

She said she was living a lie after her Olympics fame skyrocketed. "Underneath my suit, I'd have a bra and pantyhose, and this and that, and thinking to myself, they know nothing about me."

"I walk off the stage and I feel like a liar," she said about the struggles she had when making public appearances. "And I would say ‘F**k, I can't tell my story.' There's so much more to me than those 48 hours in the stadium."

She used a rubber band to try on her first wife's bras, but when she was asked about it, denied knowledge of doing so.

Caitlyn said the lying finally became too much and she confessed to Chrystie. "That's why the rubber band. Because I've been wearing your clothes."

Unlike her relationship with Kris Jenner, Caitlyn told Chrystie about her desire to transition. Caitlyn "told me she always wanted to be a woman. She told me as a little kid how that felt. She told me of different fantasies that she had, related to loving women."

She said that a physical relationship now is the furthest thing on her mind. "If you have a list of 10 reasons to transition, sex would be number 10."

Her relationship with her ex-wives was so bad, that she intentionally missed her daughter Cassandra's birth.

The 80s were "the dark years" and she admitted "the gender issues were big at that time. I had ignored them for so long, but I was aging."

Caitlyn revealed that after meeting Kris Jenner, and learning about her family, she decided to date her because "she comes with as much baggage as I do."

Caitlyn says Kris Jenner set up rules, like she could cross-dress "when she was traveling on her own, but not at home." Kris denies that there were any rules.

"The older Jenner children maintain that Kris essentially turned on them." Kris said she and Caitlyn stopped seeing the children because "you just got to a point where it became exhausting to be embattled all the time. We weren't getting anywhere with constantly asking to see the kids and not getting a yes."

Caitlyn became more involved with the Kardashian children than her own. Her son Burt says he didn't see Caitlyn more than twice a year for almost 10 years.

She revealed the problems in her relationship with Kris. "A lot of times she wasn't very nice. People would see how I got mistreated. She controlled the money … all that kind of stuff."

Kris hoped "that the gender dysphoria would somehow go away," and made excuses. "You always think in the back of your mind, I can live with this. I can fix this … if I just do this it's going to be ok."

Caitlyn hosted "girls' nights" casual occasions with food and wine where she would dress "as desired, and feel natural and comfortable in the presence of women."

She told Vanity Fair that her reasons for making the transition were deeper than just for a reality show. "I'm not doing this to be interesting. I'm doing this to live."

Caitlyn said she couldn't live another day without making a change. "If I was lying on my deathbed and I had kept this secret and never ever did anything about it, I would be lying there saying, ‘You just blew your entire life.'"