Following the premiere of Kate Plus 8 on Sunday night, TLC aired an eye-opening special look at a post-divorce Kate Gosselin, and RadarOnline.com has all the details, including Kate's shocking revelation that when her ex-husband Jon launched a custody battle, she read about it on the internet!
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Kate went on to admit that "every mother's greatest fear is that they're horrible" at mothering, and that a judge would take her children away from her.
Kate's bodyguard and good friend Steve Neild also speaks for the first time and opens up about "threats left in the mailbox, threats left at the front door."
On a more upbeat note, Neild talked about how Kate has finally learned to relax around her fans, but that sometimes an over-zealous fan can be an unexpected danger.
Kate is shown breaking down on the day she learned her ex-husband Jon was going to contest their custody agreement, a battle he has since dropped.
Kate Plus 8 airs Sunday at 9 pm on TLC.