Janet Jackson, speaking for the first time in-depth since her brother Michael's June 25 death, said she sequestered herself from the news so as not to hear her late brother knocked after his passing.
"It will drive you crazy," she told Harper's Baazar. "People can have rhinoceros skin, but there's a point when something's going to hurt you. Not everyone is stone, stone. I haven't watched the news in weeks. I had to ask my chef, 'How's Obama doing?' I haven't read a newspaper. On top of that, we've lost a family member."
She told the magazine that last time she saw him was at a May 14 family celebration, just over a month before he died.
"We had so much fun that day," she said. "We kept calling each other after and saying how great it was."
Of the star-studded Staples Center memorial Janet said she had blocked it out.
"I don't remember that at all," she said of the July 7 event. "I really didn't want to say anything."
She said if she could have one more day with the Thriller singer, she would "relive that moment we had when we were kids, do our little run: We'd wake up, feed the animals, spend the entire day together."
And in an interesting revelation, Janet said as a 14-year-old, it was her job to take care of her superstar brother. "I would shop for him. I washed his clothes and cleaned his room. When mother would go out of town, she'd say, 'I'm leaving you in charge. Take care of Michael.'"