Amber Smith: My Rock Bottom Moment & Why Dating Is Hard In L.A.
Feb. 25 2009, Published 5:44 a.m. ET
RadarOnline.com happened to be cozying up at the bar last Saturday night at the Four Seasons in Beverly Hills when we spotted the gorgeous actress/supermodel Amber Smith, who recently appeared on VH1'S Celebrity Rehab and Sober House.
Our lame opening line: "You look even more striking in person than on TV."
(Hey, It's actually true!)
Amber was stunning in a leopard print slipdress and sipping water. We struck up a conversation about her life, career, and how appearing on Celebrity Rehab and Sober House has changed her life.
Radar: Do you find it at all difficult being in a bar situation?
Amber: "Yes, its uncomfortable... for obvious reasons... But I am learning, from my sober girlfriends, the key to being sober in LA is to 'quality not quantity,' meaning, when we do frequent restaurants or bars, we don't stay long. I go in, order a Coke, chat with whom seems most interesting and leave in an hour. The night remains fun and Interesting if you 'can't stay long.' Otherwise, just hanging around all night sober simply isn't that fun. It's torture rather. I have three sober girlfriends and we take longer getting ready to go out than we do actually being out. But it's a lot of fun to make it a game of just going out to have a great hour or two tops. This short night policy is working for me and the night never gets stale (plus no hangovers)."
Radar: Usually, when someone seeks treatment, it's because they hit rock bottom. What was your "rock bottom" moment?
Amber: "Some say that the bottom you hit, how low you have to fall, is equivalent to how big your SuperEgo is... well, my bottom was so low that I must have had the biggest (super)ego in town! lol... I literally ended up in a place called The Hollywood Hotel on Yucca street. It was the scariest thing I have ever experienced. I actually am dealing with PTSD now from that period of time (April 2007 through July 2007 was the worst). I was in a hotel unable to stand more than 10 minutes at a time. My liver was so bad that I would pass out through the day. I don't think I could live through that again. The good news is I found God in that little room. As they say, 'There are no atheists in the trenches,' and I needed a miracle to get out of there.. a miracle did happen and I actually had a white-light spiritual experience that changed my life on July 21st 2007 - but that is a whole different story!"
Looking for more Amber? We've got the sexy photos.
Radar: During Sober House, you had a relapse. Why do you think this happened? And what did you learn from the experience?
Amber: "Bob Forrest said, 'If you start drinking, you will be back in rehab in six months.' I think I just needed to prove I was an alcoholic to myself. I KNOW I am a drug addict, but the addict mind wants a way to get relief and my mind started saying, 'Sure, Amber, you are a bad drug addict BUT... are you an alcoholic?' I know I am both and I knew it then. I just need some proof... the mind wants to find excuses to use/drink.