(KEITH) URBAN DECAY

In the upcoming issue of Parade, actress Nicole Kidman admits that she began to feel a little unlucky at love again as she went "to hell and back."

Three months after marrying Keith Urban, the country star had to go to rehab for alcohol abuse.

"That was big," she says -- an understatement. The good news is, "We became the closest we could become, because we had to bare our souls. We did 10 years of marriage in three months."

Urban recovered, and Kidman says that things are better than ever between them.

"I am just very, very grateful," she says. "I think we are both in a place of humility."