Last year, Tamra Judge faced off against her ex-husband, Simon Barney, in a nasty custody battle over their three children.
The Real Housewives of Orange County spitfire, 47, ultimately relinquished custody of their 16-year-old daughter Sidney to her former hubby— and says she nearly lost her will to live in the process.
"I got very depressed," Judge tells In Touch Weekly. "There were times where I didn't want to wake up and live."
The Bravo star, now married to Eddie Judge, 42, says she turned to religion for guidance.
"I was in the lowest place I'd ever been in my life," she claims. "As a family, we started to go to church to help with the pain."
She even got baptized in May in a ceremony to appear on an upcoming episode of her reality series.
"My original plan was not to do it on camera," she explains. "But after talking to my pastor, he told me that it could be very helpful for other people."
Though the custody war is over, Judge has other troubles on the domestic front. As RadarOnline.com exclusively reported, her eldest son, Ryan Veith, 29, was arrested in June for suspected domestic abuse after a blowout fight with baby mama Sarah Rodriguez, 32, in their Rancho Santa Margarita, California, home.
Though he spent the night in jail, Veith was never charged with a crime.