‘The Real Live Forever!’ Aaron Hernandez’s Chilling Suicide Notes Revealed

Feb. 25 2019, Updated 11:48 a.m. ET

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More than one year since football tight end Aaron Hernandez took his own life inside a Massachusetts prison, his suicide notes have finally been revealed.

“Hernandez wrote three letters the night he died, letters discovered in his cell and released to us by corrections officials a few days after his death,” wrote Jose Baez, the athlete’s former attorney in his recently-released book, Unnecessary Roughness: Inside the Trial and Final Days of Aaron Hernandez.

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The letters were addressed to Hernandez’s beloved daughter, Avielle Jenkins-Hernandez, 5, fiancée Shayanna Jenkins, 29, and Baez, 49.

While in his letter to Baez, Hernandez showed no intention of killing himself, his chilling messages to his fiancée and daughter reference life, death, God and eternity.

“You have always been my soul-mate and I want you to love life and know I’m always with you. I told you what was coming indirectly! I love you so much and know you are an angel. We split into two to come change the world! Your characteristic is that of a true angel and the definition of God’s love!” he wrote to Jenkins, possibly referring to his crime.

As readers know, Hernandez—who suffered severe brain injuries from his time as a pro football player—was found guilty of the 2013 murder of acquaintance Odin Lloyd. He was also accused of being involved in a Boston double homicide, though he was found not guilty of the crime.

“Tell my story fully but never think anything besides how much I love you. This was the supreme almightys plan, not mine! I love you! Let Avi know how much I love her! Look after Jano and Eddie for me —they are my boys (You’re Rich),” wrote Hernandez to Jenkins.

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In April 2017, Hernandez hung himself with his bed sheets inside his cell.


In his letter to his daughter, Hernandez told her that he would never leave her, and that he would one day see her in heaven.

“Daddy will never leave you! I’m entering to the timeless realm in which I can enter into any form at any time because everything that could happen or not happened I see all at once! Life is eternal—believe!!! Love, repent, and see me/yourself in everyone because that’s what the truth is! I’ll see you all in the heavens awaiting you all with the same love,” he wrote.

If you or someone you know is in an emotional distress or suicidal, please call the Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (8255).

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