In the last of a series of exclusive sit down interviews with RadarOnline.com reality TV star Tila Tequila is hitting back at her critics that have accused her of milking Casey Johnson's death for publicity purposes and those that have said her engagement to the late Johnson and Johnson heiress was nothing but a stunt.
Looking composed, but occasionally having to choke back the tears, Tila insisted she and Casey were very much the real deal and that they were totally, completely, madly in love with each other.
"Everything I do people say is a publicity stunt," a frank Tila told RadarOnline.com. "But it's not uncommon for two people to have love at first sight.
"I'm a very hopeless romantic, I wear my heart on my sleeve, " Tila said pointing to the heart shaped tattoo on the top of her left arm, "Which is why I have this tattoo.
"Most lesbians, it's different with girls. When you meet you just know, there's no games. When you're with a guy, you're like, 'Is he going to call me back the next day?' There was none of that with us. And we fell in love and we just - it was like - it was like God just made it happen."
Tila said that Casey moved herself in practically straight away, and that bit by bit there was gradually more and more of her there in the house. "Every time she came over she would bring more. She wouldn't bring like a toothbrush, she would bring a whole bag - suitcases!"
Tila continues, "But I really loved her being here and I'm usually alone a lot. I'm not used to having someone here and she was sort of spending the night - we just fell in love.
"Next thing you know my whole guest room was filled with all of her shoes, and this was before we even got engaged!"
Tila also shared a romantic surprise that Casey arranged for her. "She's like, 'You're going to be so proud of me - when you come home check out the bathroom." Choking back the tears a visibly distressed Tila continues, "I came home and into the bathroom and it's all of Casey's stuff and she has picture frames of her and Ava and all her perfumes and a picture of Marilyn Monroe and all these things and her flowers and it was so cute because she had literally moved in.
"I thought - that to me was so cute - and if it was anybody else I would be like, if it was anyone else I'd be like, you know, this is going too fast.
"I was so scared to love her and I wouldn't do anything to lose her and I wouldn't do anything to mess anything up.
"We were so in love but we were scared to ever say anything - you know. But we knew the feelings were there."