In a tearful and emotional interview, reality TV star Tila Tequila opens up to RadarOnline.com exclusively about the heart breaking moment she discovered her beloved fiance, Johnson and Johnson heiress Casey Johnson, had died.
Visibly upset, with mascara running down her face, Tila tells RadarOnline.com the only reason she wasn't with Casey at the time of her death was because Johnson had urged Tila to make up with her family and go home for the holidays.
It's obvious that Tila holds herself, along with Casey's family, to blame for the tragic death of the woman who Tila touchingly calls her "wifey".
"I was in Texas for Christmas for the first time because I have been estranged with my family for a very long time. Now that Casey was in my life, it was because of her that I decided to come back home and make up with my family," Tila told RadarOnline.com.
"I was teaching Casey Vietnamese and everything so that when she'd meet my family she was going to ask them in Vietnamese, that she was so in love with me, and that she was going to ask my parents if she could marry me."
Choking up in tears and trying to hide her obvious anger Tila continued,"She couldn't come because those girls had pressed charges against her for a f***ing dress. During the case she was going through, she wasn't allowed to leave Los Angeles."
A surprisingly sober seeming Tila went on to share with RadarOnline.com her poignant last conversation with Casey in December, "The last time I spoke with her was on the 30th, late on the 30th and everything was fine. The last thing she said was, 'I love you so much. I never want to lose you. I can't wait for us to start our family together.' And then I said, 'I love you too and I'll be back home soon.'"
Breaking into tears, Tila goes on to tell of the actual moment she discovered the news that was to change her life forever, "Finally I got a call from my friend Joe Francis. That's when I immediately booked a ticket home.
"The minute Joe called me, I was back here within three and a half hours, and that's when I found out. Joe hid me at his house."
Johnson was discovered dead at her Los Angeles home on Monday January 4th. The official cause of death has yet to be ruled, pending toxicology reports.
As RadarOnline.com exclusively revealed Tila believes her beloved "wifey" died from a prescription drugs overdose.