Jon Gosselin said he plans to ask his estranged wife Kate to forgive him for his actions of the last several months, and promised girlfriend Hailey Glassman that they'll reconcile — in time.
"It is hard for me to ask to be forgiven from someone who might never forgive me. I am saying this now to Kate, 'I am sorry for doing the things that I did'," Jon told an estimated crowd of 50 paying guests and 75 reporters at Manhattan's West Side Jewish Center Sunday night, during an event sponsored by Rabbi Shmuley Boteach's organization, This World.
Jon, 32, expressed remorse over his numerous reported flings -- which include Glassman, Star reporter Kate Major and family babysitter Stephanie Santoro -- that sprouted up in tabloids this summer following the couple's June separation.
"I'll apologize to her for openly having relationships in the public eye," he said. "That was a huge mistake, because if she would've done that to me, I would have been extremely pissed off."
Knowing that his children could one day Google him and read about his recent behavior is an embarrassing thought, he added.
"I know I'll have to explain my actions," he said.
Fame, Jon said, had been his downfall: "I didn't grow up this way. It is hard for me -- but I have to keep on going, keep on working and providing."
The Pennsylvania native said he himself is confused as to what the hype is all about.
"I'm not a fame seeker," Jon said. "Everyday I look in the mirror and I wonder why I'm famous. I don't sing. I don't dance. I'm not a Nobel Peace Prizewinner. I just had eight kids and I had a show on TLC."
The Jon & Kate Plus 8 star contacted the Rabbi a few months ago "just to talk," he said. He wasn't initially looking for spiritual guidance, though he indicated he is now taking Rabbi Shmuley's advice.
In an exchange near the end of the event, the Rabbi told the small crowd, "My advice is, both spouses should not date because the kids are going through a hard time," adding Jon put his relationship with Hailey Glassman "on ice."
Jon said that's exactly what he's doing.
"Hailey and I decided to calm things down until the divorce, just until the divorce," he said. "I don't want to ruin things with Hailey like I did with Kate. We just need to slow things down. I don't want another failure in my relationships. I don't want to make the same mistakes I made with Kate, with Hailey. I would just be repeating the pattern over again."