Octo-Mom Nadya Suleman is defending her panicked call to 911 last October during which she repeatedly begged police to help her find her missing 5-year-old son, JJ.
In an exclusive interview with RadarOnline.com, Nadya told us she was hormonal at the time of the 911 call, explaining she was pregnant with the octuplets.
She also told us she had no idea she told the dispatcher, "I'm going to kill myself."
When RadarOnline.com spoke with Nadya Wednesday night, she had absolutely no idea the frenzied, 5 minute and 19 second call had been made public.
Watch what happens when Nadya hears the call for the very first time.