Sunday night’s episode of the Real Housewives of New Jersey featured an intense screaming match between Melissa Gorga and her sister-in-law Teresa Giudice, and RadarOnline.com has learned Melissa isn’t proud of some of the things she’s said.
“Welcome to rock bottom. We hit it hard in this episode, and it was NOT a soft landing, believe me,” Melissa revealed Monday in her Bravo blog.
While on the retreat in Lake George, Melissa says she and hubby Joe Gorga were skeptical, knowing there would be drama with the Giudices.
“There have been too many times when we put a band-aid on our issues with Teresa, and we would always fall back to the same negative place. We decided if we were going to go to this retreat, we weren’t going to be fake. We didn’t want to throw a blanket on the problems that were hurting our family,” she wrote.
“It may have seemed harsh, but we were being real and we truly wanted to get to the bottom of the problem. That was obviously not going to be easy. When people don’t want to be honest and pretend they want to fix things you can never really move forward. There were so many ugly things being said about us and we just wanted it to stop.”
Melissa admits that the drama at Lake George got out of control and even called it “much worse” than it ever was before.
“We started off awkward, got angry, and then furious, and spiraled down until we were at the lowest of the low. While we were in Lake George, we were as mean and petty and disrespectful as we’d ever been in the ten years we’ve known each other,” Melissa wrote.
“They say you have to hit rock bottom before you can climb your way out. You’ll find out if ‘they’ are right.”
And as bad as things got between the Gorgas and the Giudices, Melissa says that in the next episode “the cork on ten-years’ worth of anger popped” and she regrets some of the things she said.
“When you’re in that pit of raw, extreme emotion, you lash out. In the next episode, you’ll see the verbal filter most of us keep in place just dissolved. There was no holding back. No boundaries. Nothing was off limits. The cork on ten-years’ worth of anger popped. All that bottled-up ugliness exploded all over the castle,” Melissa wrote.
“We said and did things that, under any other circumstances, wouldn’t have happened. In Lake George, it all came out. Taking our relationships out of New Jersey and putting them this alternate reality made us all go nuts.
“I’m not proud of some of the things I said. I certainly don’t enjoy watching us at our worst. We do eventually figure out a way to climb up from rock bottom.”
Tune in next Sunday on Bravo to find out if this family can resolve their differences!