Taylor Armstrong On Real Housewives: ‘The Last Couple Of Weeks Have Been Hell’

Jan. 10 2012, Published 5:30 a.m. ET

A distraught Taylor Armstrong, with her marriage crumbling and castmates nowhere to be found, broke down on Monday’s edition of The Real Housewives Of Beverly Hills.

The second season of the show has closely documented Taylor's shaky relationship with her late husband Russell, whom she claims abused her throughout their marriage. The 47-year-old businessman was found hanged at a Los Angeles home August 15, after the season was taped.

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On Monday’s episode, Taylor was in Southern California while the rest of the cast was on a Hawaiian vacation. (She didn't go because of the cast's previous run-in with husband Russell at a party.)

Talking with confidante Dana Wilkey, Taylor admitted she was at a crossroads as to the people in her life.

"The majority of my friends are in Hawaii, which is difficult, because I’m going through the toughest time of my life,” she explained. “The last couple of weeks have been hell."

Taylor all but waved the white flag while talking about her marriage to her-then husband Russell.

“I have given everything I can and I have been to counseling with him and without him I have tried to change myself -- there’s no way we can be together.”

She said of her behavior: "I’m either I’m crying or screaming or drinking too much. ... I just need to learn to be on my own and to learn that I deserve something better.”