By Alexis Tereszcuk – Radar Senior Reporter
Kim Kardashian’s marriage meltdown was on full display on Sunday night’s season finale of Kourtney and Kim Take New York.
“I wanted to be married by 30 and everything I envisioned my life to be is not the fairy tale I wanted it to be,” Kim lamented after deciding to end her marriage with basketball star Kris Humphries after only 72 days.
“Sometimes … I just feel so dead inside because I haven’t really been myself here,” Kim said about living in New York City with her new husband and he admits “we got lost in the shuffle here.”
Kim has a tearful breakdown on the phone while still wearing her giant engagement ring.
“You don’t think I feel embarrassed that I fell in love and I really thought I was and then like I look back now and it’s not what I want?” she cried. “I fell in love with a guy and, like, it’s not what I thought it would be. Everyone sees I’m a different person. I’m such a b***h. Like, I’m just not myself and I’m not happy and it happened way too fast. I didn’t know him.”
But Kim just can’t find it in her heart to love Kris. “He’s everything on paper that I want, but my heart isn’t connecting,” she says.
Trying to be gracious, Kim says that the relationship wasn’t all bad. “No matter what happens with Kris and I, we shared something really special. Something only he and I can understand.”