Jane Lynch says her “heart sank” when she realized she was a lesbian.
The 51-year-old Emmy Award winning actress — who married psychologist Lara Embry last year — always felt uncomfortable as a teenager and was horrified when she made sense of her feelings when she was 13 years old.
She said: “I never felt right in my body. I loved Halloween as I could dress up as a guy.
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“[When I realized I was gay] my heart sank and I thought, ‘No one can ever find out.’ “
Jane — best known for playing Sue Sylvester on Fox’s hit show Glee — also recalled her battle with alcohol earlier in her career, admitting she rarely felt good about herself as she was so filled with shame about her sexuality.
The actress — who joined alcoholics anonymous when she was 31 — added in an interview with the Daily Mail newspaper: “I drank every day since my senior year of high school just to get a buzz.
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“I only felt good about twice in that time, but I was chasing a thrill.
“I was lonely and, even when I was out as a gay person, there was so much shame in it still.
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“I never got as far as thinking about suicide, but it wasn’t a good time.”
Glee returns Tuesday, November 1 at 8/7c on Fox.
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