Nine OxyContin tablets were found in the body of Adam “DJ AM” Goldstein, leading officials to question whether the troubled celebrity disc jockey overdosed or committed suicide.
Eight of the nine pills were undigested, an indicator Goldstein swallowed the unusually high amount quickly, a source told People.
“He wanted to die,” the source said. “He was going unconscious when he took the last one. He didn’t even swallow it.”
In addition to the pills, a mirror was barricading his door when authorities tried to enter, and a crack cocaine pipe was also found next to his corpse.
Goldstein, according to the source, “smoked a lot of crack, barricaded the doors and killed himself.”
Goldstein was found dead in in his Manhattan apartment Friday, August 28. He was 36.
Goldstein’s death comes less than a year after he barely survived a plane crash with his friend and musical collaborator Travis Barker, the drummer for Blink-182.
Four people were killed when the plane skidded off a South Carolina runway. Goldstein suffered severe burns and in the weeks and months that followed, was said to have suffered depression.
A private memorial for Goldstein will be held Thursday evening in Los Angeles at the Hollywood Palladium, People also reports.
The memorial will be in the style of a 12-step meeting in homage to Goldstein’s very public battle with addiction. According to the invite: “The format of the evening will be in the style of an open 12-step meeting. Adam’s friends both from his life in recovery, as well as those from other areas of his life are welcome. We ask only that everyone adhere to the tradition of anonymity and let what they hear there, and who they see there, stay there.”